As I sit here writing, the early morning sun pouring through the window, I feel very connected to you, an invisible thread of awakening, of knowing and sensing wrapping itself around my heart.
Perhaps this is your first time here in circle with me? Or, maybe you have been following along for a while?
Either way, welcome!
Before navigating our way towards todays lesson from A Course In Miracles, I thought I would share with you some of the moments of beauty and connection I experienced yesterday.
I know that we are each immensely influenced by the global lockdown of services, businesses and familiar day to day activities, as many of us are self-isolating, working from home, and home-educating our children due to closures of all sorts, amongst the Corona virus outbreak.
It is important, more than ever, to find comfort, connection and ways of feeling, and being useful in amongst what could be considered dark times.
Our most vulnerable citizens and our wider communities need us strong, resilient, open and heartful, to find creative solutions to enable the flow of life’s activities to continue in new and clever ways.
I personally have decided to cease all in-person group courses and workshops for the forseeable future. Not out of fear, but as an act of service to others, to protect that which is sacred; to honour and respect all life.
This does mean, however, that I shall be showing up more online, in person, to offer practices and support (you may join me here: Awakening Grace Connect).
If you find yourself now with children at home, and having a first experience of home educating, please reach out for support, I home educated all three of my children throughout their primary and secondary years.
Yesterday I found myself, with my son, Kealan in a local cafe, to both support the ongoing of their business through our custom, but also so that I could show up here, with you, and post the days blog Keep up with messages from students and send the link for the evenings online group yoga nidra session (I shall be popping along shortly to share this blog too).
Our local community council was deep in discussions about how to serve the most vulnerable members of our tiny community of just over 700 people, especially the elderly and the frail, the ones with very young children and those battling ongoing health conditions. It is truly a joy to live in the heart of a community that values its members so strongly.
I shall be volunteering in any way that is needed.
Whilst at the café working, we had the great pleasure of video chatting with my other children (now travelling in Thailand), to see their faces so full of love and adventure, was a gorgeous gift to both Kealan and me.
We laughed, thrashed out the latest developments personally and professionally, we planned and bathed one another in love – isn’t it remarkable what can be felt, shared and understood across the airwaves like this!
The next wonderful point of connection in the day, was when dealing with the company that have been failing to install our landline and broadband (hence so many visits to local eateries of late, to use their wifi).
The saga of our still uninstalled internet has been going on for 6 weeks now, which given that I mostly (bar for leading workshops and running yoga teacher trainings) work from home, has been an inconvenience its true, but actually it has been immensely useful for me personally too.
It has meant that I have had to get crystal clear about how to spend the limited online time I have borrowed from the local cafes.
It has, by default, allowed me more time away from being online which has been a balm for my nervous system. I shall be continuing to, once we are all up and running with the internet at home to stick to precise working hours, as a way of creating more balance in my day to day living.
Anyway, I digress a little, whilst dealing with the customer care service provider on the phone, Kealan and I were walking along the coastal path, phone on loud speaker, so that Kealan could help me, as some of you may know I have a degree of hearing loss that makes phone calls, particularly with strangers rather difficult.
During this walk and conversation with a very sincere and genuine young man who was determined to get to the bottom of the issue, we were absorbing the beauty of our environment, smelling the fresh sea air, and on a mission to get ourselves online!
My evening online session was delivered from my students’ house, gratefully arranged pretty much last minute, again, another moment in the day of connection and beauty was had and shared, and her daughter snuggled in and styling my hair as I delivered our live class.
I love these kinds of spontaneous moments where everyone benefits, and the connection is felt far and wide.
There was a sharing from one of our attendees as we got started with the guided practice about feeling anxious at this time and looking for the right Sankalpa; heartfelt desire, a personal intention, to be an anchor of strength, resilience and openness in amongst the fear.
By the end of our hour-long yoga nidra session, and once a few people had shared their personal experience of the practice, this same woman shared that she had shifted to a state of empowerment.
My heart was bubbling over with so much love and gratitude that I get to show up daily and be of service, that genuinely there is no separation and that if we are willing to go on the inner journey of awakening, then we may surely be a beacon of light for others, just as each of the attendees were doing collectively for themselves and each other, and the ripple effect of this vibrating out to uplift our global family.
“The truly inspired are enlightened and cannot abide in darkness.”
- A Course In Miracles
Our lesson of the day, from ACIM, seems rather timely again: A meaningless world engenders fear.
This points towards the emotional impact of yesterdays lesson. Our egos want to rush in and create meaning, to box things into our own perceived order, to fit with our current level of understanding.
I wonder how many of us are truly comfortable with existing within the richly empty spaces of the cosmos, knowing that that also resides within and through us, without the need to determine its meaning, form, shape, texture, or give it an identity?
Are we able to simply KNOW that it is so and not seek to change that?
Are we able to sit with Divine Love, God, The Universe, One Mind and simply be so fully present that there is no ‘out there’, ‘me’, or ‘you’, there is formless perfection back of everything?
Does this engender resistance in any way for you?
That’s ok, you can, indeed we may discard anything that doesn’t feel like a fit for us!
A Course In Miracles states, ‘A meaningless world engenders fear because I think I am in competition with God.’
When our ego constructs are desperate to be known in the world, we will argue reality, we will seek to label, control, box in and title anything that we believe in to give it our own perceived personal value and meaning.
We may find it powerful to witness this tendency in ourselves, and not seek to change anything, but rest in the awareness of being.
On this final note, I am off to a local café, to upload this blog, check in with emails and social media, have a walk, phone my parents, and then come home to unravel my spine with a juicy embodiment practice to some soulful tunes, in front of a roaring fire.
How is the rest of your day looking?
May you and yours’ be well.
With my love for you,